Life is busy, I’ve got a new job, we are trying to sell our house and find a new one, we need to find a new school and pre-school for the kids in September. Life is busy. However sadly I can’t add the gym into the busy list at the moment. I am having problems with my back, standing, sitting or walking for long periods of time leave me wanting to find a dark corner to cry in with my lower back seized up and shooting pains down both legs. It’s been developing for a few months now but it’s only in the last few weeks that it’s impacting my day to day life. I am going to get a GP appointment this week in the hope that they maybe able to refer me to someone who knows what may be going on. The last month or so I’ve been grinning and saying “well it hurts if I train and it hurts if I don’t, so I might as well train” but actually that’s just stupid. Definitely until I see the Dr I will be swimming only, as you can imagine that decision makes me want to cry as well.

If you read the Rebecca Holman wrote in the Telegraph about how she hates exercising and the cost and wanted to scream then this is the blog post for you  Warning: this post is about women and fitness but it includes swearing .  As you can imagine my take on it is start exercising for yourself, use your old t-shirts to exercise in  and find your nearest Sports Direct.

Hope you are all well out there.


You need to read this blog post.


If you were wondering if this sudden flurry of blog posts is anything to do with procrastinating over other issues you’d be right. However. HOWEVER.  This blog post is SO perfect I just wanted to post it here so NOBODY misses it.

Why our fat loss obsession is ruining our health

Also have a photo of my beautiful daughter doing the exercise she loves – playing on the trampoline

Jumping with joy...

Jumping with joy…


Have a good day everyone.

Make up


I’ve been meaning to ask, all of you who took part in no makeup selfie has it changed your make-up application routine? I didn’t formally take part because I would say 50% of the time I don’t wear make-up anyway and the time that I do all I wore is eyeshadow, eyeliner, mascara and blusher. However after all the amazingly lovely photos of women looking like well, women without makeup I decided to cut down even further. Now all I wear is mascara and blusher and it’s amazing how quickly I’ve got used to seeing my face in the mirror and how weird I now think make-up on other people looks. Does that sound judgemental? I don’t mean it to sound judgemental it’s just how I now think about make-up. I am sure there are things I do that other people think are weird. Like not wear make-up.

Anyway, what I wanted to ask is – Have you changed your make-up routine since the no-makeup selfie hashtag?



Come and join in if you think it looks fun….

Life is busy. We are moving. I’m trying to get a (more secure) job. I’m training but wimping out of competing (I am loving going to watch however). As the summer is coming near I am getting more and more wound up by the “Get a SUMMER BODY!” and “Bikini body IN JUST 6 WEEKS” which appear to be everywhere at the moment.

I know posting training vids isn’t quite as exciting as my beautifully written prose but it fills a hole and also HOW AWESOME AND BADASS DOES TYRE FLIPPING LOOK?

I had the pleasure and privilege to watch the England’s strong women championship Qualifier London and Northern counties competition yesterday here were the events

Event 1 : Log press
U63 : 35kg
U75 : 45kg
O : 55kg

Event 2 : Deadlift
U63 : 100kg
U75 : 110kg
O : 120kg

Event 3 : arm over arm and drag back
U63 : 50kg
U75 : 60kg
O : 70kg

Event 4 : farmers walk 15m drop 15m
U63 : 50kg
U75 ; 60kg
O : 70kg

Event 5: medley
4 objects loaded onto platform
Items to be confirmed
U63 : 20kg – 40kg
U75 : 30kg – 50kg
O : 40kg – 60kg

and here are the awesome women who participated.


Awesome Strongwoman

Awesome Strongwoman

If it’s something that you think you would like a go at head over to my Comp page and see if there is anything near you, the South is awash with competitions this year, catering to all sorts of levels and it’s definitely a more the merrier atmosphere with a supportive and friendly bunch of girls.

if I eat all the popcorn it will make me fat….

This post has been sitting in my draft folder for over a week now because I didn’t really know what to write about it. I still don’t. …

Once a week I pick my 3 year old daughter up from pre-school and take her straight to gymnastics. Her pre-school finishes at 12:15 and her gymnastics starts at 12:35 so I make her a packed lunch to eat in the car. This week the packed lunch had popcorn in it, I thought we were going to go to the cinema last weekend and so I had bought a bag of supermarket popcorn to take with us. We then didn’t go. E loves popcorn and she tends not to love packed lunches so I thought it would be a good way of insuring she ate something before gymnastics. Whilst we were driving along with my daughter eating the popcorn she turned to me and said “if I eat all the popcorn it will make me fat”. She is 3. I was genuinely speechless and not in a good way. I didn’t know what to say and I can’t remember what I did say. I do remember it made me want to cry.

I’ve had issues with food since I was 10. One of my top priorities is making sure my children never, ever have those issues. But I don’t know how.  I try and teach everything in moderation to my children. They are allowed ice-cream and sweets and crisps. They also eat a lot of fruit and veg. I try not to use food as a bribe or a reward (which is REALLY difficult and I struggle with I admit as it’s an easy road to take).   I try and never denigrate my body in front of them.

E giggled after she had said the word, which indicates she is not really sure of what she is saying but she has obviously got this from somewhere and I didn’t know how to respond. I still don’t.

Any comments/advice?

Tyre flipping fun in the sun….

This weekend was great. It involved tyres, cake, curry, beach, family, presents and a Mother’s Day card from my youngest which had a “Failure in an Option” sticker on (which I am still trying to decide what she means by….).


On Saturday morning it was strongwoman event training and as I haven’t posted here about training for a while I thought I would share some videos.

Tyre Flipping fun, boys (who used 330kg tyre) vs girls (we had the 220kg tyre)

Axle deadlift 110kg. 2 reps. Missed 120kg.

I hope you all had a great weekend. Let me know if you did any awesome exercise stuff.

this wasn’t what I was going to talk about but hey-ho

Bit of a bitty post this morning.

Firstly I wanted to draw attention to this blog post Adding not taking away  written by @mrsb_ldn who is a runner. It’s such a great idea, accentuate the positive. You are adding good things to your life, not, necessarily taking bad things away.  I think mentally this method is much more likely to work.

In January I did take something bad away, I gave up drinking. It was my husbands idea, let’s do dry January he said, ok I said. By the end of January I was converted and he was gasping for a beer.

I can’t believe the difference it has made in the way I feel. I would never class myself as a heavy drinker, I had one small glass of white wine a night which would stretch to 2 glasses on a Friday or a Saturday. I know I have low tolerance to booze anyway (anymore than 3 glasses of wine would give me a hangover).

Love my sleep...

Love my sleep…

This is what I found when I gave up wine. I slept better. I love my sleep. Love it. I need 8 hours not to be cranky. 8 hours uninterrupted with a 3yr old, 5yr old and my bladder the size of a goldfish doesn’t happen very often. Since giving up booze I sleep better when I do sleep and I’m not as tired the next day even if I am woken half a dozen times, even if I go to bed later than my usual 10pm. I can’t quite describe the difference this has made to my life.

Alcohol tends to have a depressive effect on me. Not at the time but the next day if I have had one too many (i.e. 3 glasses) then I tend to feel tired, depressed and withdrawn. Problems seem bigger, annoying children seem even more annoying.  So I’m not missing that at all.

There are many jokes and memes about 6/7pm, and when the kids are in bed over drinking alcohol and having 1 glass a night feels the norm. Of course you also get the articles telling us that wine can be good for you (I don’t drink red). However I am also lucky as a 38 year old if I want to say no thanks to a glass of wine I might get a raised eyebrow but I don’t get peer pressured into having just the one. I don’t get called a party pooper. I do get called designated driver.

Despite not being a heavy drinker (most weeks I wouldn’t have gone above the recommended weekly safe limit) alcohol was impacting my life, how I viewed my life.  I’ve not totally foresaken booze, I’ve drunk maybe 5 times since end of Jan. Mostly half glass of wine before thinking why am I doing this? and switching to grapefruit squash (yeah there are not a lot of adult sounding alternatives to booze). Right now I don’t see a point where I will go back to regular consumption (unless I win the lottery and can afford to drink champagne for breakfast, then all bets are off).

This blog post didn’t go anywhere near what I was going to cover today, I was going to start talking about positivity in your life and a mantra I heard this weekend that I really liked. Oh well, that’s what blogs are for :)

Do you drink?

To make-up or no make-up, that is the question.

Today’s post has nothing to do with exercise and everything to do with wearing no makeup and the #nomakeupselfies that are currently doing the rounds. I am going to ignore the reason people are doing it because that is a whole different discussion (but yes go check your breasts for lumps).

The model's skin doesn't look like this photo either...

The model’s skin doesn’t look like this photo either…

I don’t really wear make-up, I feel I should for work to feel and look professional so I have mascara and blusher on today. I don’t wear foundation as

  • I have yet to find one which doesn’t bring me out in spots
  • I am too lazy to get up early enough to put it on
  • My freckles are awesome and don’t deserve to be covered up (even when I hated the rest of my body I always loved my freckles).

I hate the fact more than two thirds of employers admit they would be less likely to employ a female job applicant if she did not wear makeup to the job interview, and I hate the fact more that Emma Leslie, Escentual.com beauty editor, said: “Whether rightly or wrongly, British bosses clearly think that keeping up appearances at work is an important factor for female staff if they want to get on in their career.”

“Whether rightly or wrongly?”      Are you shitting me?

Someone said on their facebook timeline “ Are you brave enough to go bare?”  Wearing no makeup should not be seen as a brave step.  A woman shouldn’t think she looks blotchy without makeup (she might look blotchy without makeup but that’s because what she, and many others, look like without makeup, this is not a bad thing it’s (and I know I’m repeating myself here) what we look like).

We are so used to seeing faces smoothed over by foundation in real life and photoshop in magazines/adverts/photos that we have lost touch with what women actually look like. We compliment people on their looks when they do wear make-up (which is actually pretty weird as you can flip it and say do you mean they are ugly without). Our brains are conditioned to think that with make-up = healthy looking, without make-up = ill.

I don’t want my daughter growing up thinking her work prospects later in life are dictated by whether she wears make-up or not.  That wearing make-up is what women do, part of the picture which includes shaving her legs and plucking her eyebrows. I don’t want my son growing up thinking for a women to be pretty she has to be wearing makeup.

This isn’t an anti-makeup rant and I don’t think feminists shouldn’t wear make-up. However I wish wearing make-up wasn’t the norm. I wish we had the choice not to wear makeup and our career prospects wouldn’t be affected. I wish wearing makeup wasn’t seen as such a big deal that we post photos about it.

Do you wear make-up? Will you go out without makeup? Do you just do it for habit?

(Just adding this now as it ties in with the photoshop issue for women believing that’s what skin should actually look like. Also because it’s a great post. On Thigh Gaps and Photoshop)

“Image courtesy of marin/ FreeDigitalPhotos.net”.

Running. Sometimes.

As you probably know I advocate doing exercise you enjoy, you are much more likely to stick with it that way. However there is one exercise I don’t enjoy which I still do. Run. Let me count the ways I hate running……<several hours later>…..but I have this thing in my head about being able to run without stopping for 30 minutes. It’s kind of a baseline for me  for my health and fitness. Probably because after both children I had to start at the beginning of coach potato to 5K and it wasn’t fun or pretty getting back to the running for 30 minutes stage. To be honest I might be able to run longer than that. I could possibly, if one of my children’s lives depended on it, run a 10K and I have in the past run a 10 miler and been known to do triathlons (well 3 but one was Olympic distance!) However baseline for me – 30 minutes without stopping. On a Friday I have a very convenient 30 minutes where I could run after dropping my daughter off at pre-school and getting ready to go to my class. However it rarely happens weekly and this is why:

Run or Not Run? That is the question.

Run or Not Run? That is the question.

I have a very high skill level when it comes to finding excuses not to run.

I don’t enjoy the running process, I don’t get into the zone, I don’t find a rhythm, I don’t go to my happy place. I lumber along until the 30 minutes is up (skillfully timed to arrive back at my front door) and then collapse in a hot sweaty mess. However then the magic of exercise kicks in and I feel amazing and wonder why I don’t run more.  Until the next Friday of course when I wake up and…..well see above….

Do you have an exercise you hate but persist in doing for personal satisfaction?




Why I won’t be talking about weight loss.

So I’ve made the decision to try and drop 5/6 kgs so I can compete in the U75kgs. However I am not going to write about my attempt at weight loss. I am going to tell you why I’m not going to write about it however.

Firstly, good God it’s BORING. I’ve been trying to track macros on myfitnesspal for 2 days now and I’m already OVER IT. How can people spend time WEIGHING their food? Or counting out sprouts? Surely this obsession with nutritional value is as bad as eating nothing but crisps?  Healthy food tastes nice but the focus seems to rob some of the joy from food. It’s like the calorie counts on all the food choices in a restaurant. Part of me understands why they are there but the other part of me just screams PLEASE WOULD YOU JUST LET ME ENJOY MY FOOD IN PEACE.

It’s weird, for years I thought I was the one with eating problems, I can quite easily eat a packet of biscuits or a whole tub of Hagen Daz (actually I seem to have lost that talent with age :( )  And then I see all these people tracking what they eat to the last spear of asparagus and I start to think well actually maybe eating 2 cream slices in one sitting isn’t any more bizarre than that. A friend on twitter said to me “IMHO it’s not disordered eating if you can eat a packet of biscuits & not care about it….”  and I think she has a point.  Yes I can eat a packet of biscuits in one sitting but I can also run 5K, eat a punnet of strawberries, pick up 100kg, skullcrusher my 3 year old and eat corn on the cob until they run out at Tesco. It’s all about context and how you feel about your body. (Again it’s still ok if you eat a packet of biscuits and don’t do any of those things, as long as YOU are happy with it and don’t make yourself feel shit because of it).

I know some people who blog about weight loss do it to provide motivation to themselves and other people, it’s obviously a subject they are passionate about and that’s great. Some people have the personality type where tracking their food is no biggie and that’s great. I’m talking about me and my blog here.

Basically I don’t want weight loss to be so important in my life that I blog about it.